Jan 26, 2014
When I tell people I’m only taking three courses they immediately ask if I have a job
I would like one because money but at the same time I don’t tell them that I’m on academic probation
If I don’t get a GPA of 2.0 or higher I WILL get kicked out of university and it will be hard as fuck to get back in
I don’t want to get a job because I don’t want to risk it
And I guess it’s because I kinda want to redeem myself??
I’d rather focus my time and energy on school work and make sure that there is absolutely NO CHANCE that I will get anything lower than an A-
Failing engg was a low blow and I felt very incompetent for getting an RTW
I should have been kicked out of university
But I wasn’t and I got a second chance
I want to prove that I’m smart
I’m fine with not having a job
But I also know myself very well
I had panic attacks going to work over the summer and I’m currently having panic attacks during my lectures idk how I could handle the stress of both at the same time
But that makes me very nervous. How will I ever handle the stress of life after university if I can’t handle going to school (barely full time) and having a job at the same time??